_^*Fire*^_

A warm fire...a good source of light and life.
Deep within itself, it is driven by an urge:
...to protect what it cherishes the most.
But in order to do so, he has to keep a distance from them...
...in order not to destroy something precious with his own power.
"this deep concern he holds">>>he understands that it can bring him to an excessive selflessness.
So much so that he doesn't realize that he is slowly destroying himself with all that he has done not minding his own needs.
What is a simple fire to do when his only choice is to stay behind,watching from afar so that it wouldn't burn anything that gets close to it?

...T_T...

The day you took my ring off,
is the same day my fear grew.
The fear of that bond that connects us...
to be torn apart piece by piece.
Little by little, I begin to realize...
that what they said was becoming a reality.
The pieces ARE starting to fall.
But I do not want to make the same mistake again.
If last time, I let you take it off...
without me knowing of the consequences,
this time, I will do whatever it takes not to repeat history.
I know I made some mistakes too against you...
and I don't know if you're willing to forgive me if I would say sorry.
But I still hope that you would be understanding enough...
to accept me back as a friend...

"I LOVE YOU"

Jeremy from the new Korean drama "He's Beautiful" said:
"These words were so precious to me,
that I held onto it dearly.
But holding onto it too dearly
can mean that it can't be said again"


^_^..awwwww.... *sniff* *sniff*... He said this to Go Mi Nam while they were on the treasure bus after he sang a song for her with tears running... I actually cried in this part... Poor Jeremy.. Too bad Go Mi Nam is already in love with Hwang Tae Kyung.. :(

EMOTE VI...an unrequitted love?

"I've known you since we were just little kids.We treated each other like siblings.And since that time, I was very determined to be someone who will always be there whenever you need me.. I'll be the one who'll support you..

but I wonder... Now that we've grown...

When I see that you're smiling with someone else...Why do I feel hurt even though I once said that your happiness is my joy?

My heart cries when I see you hurt by that someone. It breaks when you're about to give up. It feels painful when you're suffering because of that someone.

And yet, here I am... comforting you... telling you to be strong and not to give up.

Seeing you in pain is the worst.

That's why I'll suppress these feelings and turn it into your own strength.Even though I also want you to look at me only, I continue to encourage you ...just for me to avoid seeing you hurt.."

"When will you realize that I love you this much?"

EMOTE V

"The pain that the world has brought upon me is spreading like a disease.
The sinful person that I am is causing others to feel the pain too.
Seeing them hurt by me adds oil to the fire,
..adds more to the feeling of hatred I feel towards myself.
Isn't there any solution for this mess?
If I distance myself from other people..
Will they not like me anymore?
Will they understand why I'd do such a thing?
They know that I have the capability to hurt them unintentionally.
But seeing them hurt by me makes me feel ten times more the pain."

EMOTE IV... Getting Jealous with the openness of other's hearts..

It hurts me to see people who can boldly express
what's been kept inside of them.
When the words enter my ears,
they directly pierce my heart.
Seems like my heart is being squeezed by my own feelings,
restlessly waiting for their time to be let out.
But even so, the darkness that I surround myself with
is just too strong to be overcome by what's inside.

EMOTE III

"The fire of life inside me is dying slowly..so slowly...
The emptiness of my heart is overwhelming me.
Life is not supposed to be about this pain..
...but is it for me?"