Puzzle Pieces

Life is a puzzle.
Each piece is important.
Unfortunately, I've already lost some it.
Wrong.
I didn't lose them.
I threw them away.
Without thinking of the consequences.

What do you expect from a fool?

Hidden

"I may be quiet but it doesn't mean I'm completely apathetic."

Again

I was scanning through my older posts, the ones I've posted about two years ago and I saw this short uhmm, poem (?) I made. Somehow, it made me regret that I ended up forgetting about this  just because I thought things changed. Well, things did change...the problem is,  "I" didn't change. 

Below is the Old Post I'm talking about:

"Treat me like a rose..
Yes,. a thorny rose.
You don't need to hold on to me so tightly
Coz u'll only get hurt in the end..."

Choked, Frozen, Numbed

Have you ever felt like you're being choked from the inside?
Well, that's exactly the feeling I get all the time,
Every morning when I wake up
And every night before I fall asleep.

As time passes, the pain gets worse
And it is starting to eat me from the inside
I struggle to ignore everything
And yet a cry pierces through my numbing senses

I will not - cannot complain
If this is punishment for all my sins,
Punishment for all the pains I've caused,
Then let it be

Helpless

What should I do?

My heart is aching too much.

My head feels like it's gonna crack.

My body feels so weak.

I thought it would be easy to pretend.

I can still put on my mask

I know I can rebuild those walls

But what am I doing?

Nothing. 

Yes, nothing...

ComeBack

Woah! It's been a year since I last posted something here 0.0


Honestly, I kinda missed writing random stuff and sharing it here...although probably it was a good thing that I didn't think of writing here anymore. Since in my case, I only become a poet (really?) when I'm depressed or emotionally in pain etc, you know what I mean... :)



Anyway, now that I'm back, it only means one thing... I'M BACK! :D *bow*

That's all~ *laughs*

No More Please

Honestly, I'm sick and tired....

I don't want to think about it anymore

...and yet it keeps running in my mind.

Each time it's brought up, my tears would meaninglessly fall

I hate it.

If only there's an escape from this pain.

Unfortunately, there is none.

Because the memory of those hurtful words are like a cage that bound me.

Just A Thought

"I'd rather be hated by someone I love than be completely ignored by that person."

The Irony In Fear, Life And Death

Many people are afraid of dying. I could be one of them. WAS one of them, maybe.

What made me change my mind? I've been looking for the answer for a long time and it made me think about other things as well...

"I'm not afraid of death. Well, I guess I shouldn't be. What I'm more afraid of is Life itself. Afraid of the things that might happen during the time that I can still perceive through my senses and feel pain. But then again, how can one live Life if his heart is full of Fear? Then, does it not mean that living in fear is like being half-dead?"

:')

"If letting you go means forgetting all those memories that I cherish so much, then I'd rather hold on even if it means making myself suffer from the pain of knowing that we'll never be the same... "

-Harumi Lillianne-

...-.-...

" I don't know if this feeling deserves to be recognized at all...

As each day passes, I'm finding it harder to distinguish reality from mere imagination. And I'm afraid that I'd completely lose myself if ever I let out what's been locked inside me all this time.."

..door to the heart...

"Don't be afraid to open your door to people who would want to come in. Take a risk. Just enjoy the visit."

But what do you do when the person who came in left a big hole on the door after he or she left?

Will you still allow more people to come in and leave bigger holes and just dissapear?

Or will you forever close your door, lock it and keep the key where it can never be found again....

LIFE accdg to mwah!

>_<

Life, for me, is like dark chocolate(which is my fave kind of chocl8 XD)...
I like it very much.
NO
I LOVE it!


BUT!

...no matter how much I love it, I can never deny the fact that it will always have a bitter taste.. :'(

..A POEM..A SONG of the HEART

My mind is telling me to stop
We are not meant for each other,it says
And so I must let go
But why is it that my heart aches
This throbbing pain
What is it telling me

Whenever I think about you
My heart goes wild
Whenever I hear your name
The pain inside me grows
And when I see you
i can't help but fall in love again

You were like an angel from heaven
So sweet and fragile
And i was like a devil from hell
The total opposite of you
But what I can't understand
Is how a dark person like me
Became vulnerable to your simple ways

Unconsciously it grew
The love I felt for you
But fear ruled my heart
And I was afraid to admit it to myself
Now that you've been taken away
I know this pain would forever go on

You will never be mine
i can never have you
But at least for a while
You made me believe
That my heart is alive
:')

Music... LSS much?

I really like this song... for me it actually speaks about friendship and trust.. just what we need since the school year is ending... :(

Count on Me
by: Bruno Mars

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
That's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
You can count on me cause I can count on you

Wooooh, Wooooh
yeah Yeah

If tou toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song
beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will
remind you

Ohh
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
Welcome to Yeucahat.com
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
Yeah Yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh

DORM!!: Farewell Party 2011

There will always come a time in our lives when we have to leave some of our most precios friends in order to move to greater heights. That is what's sad about graduating. Whether we like it or not, we all have to face this one day. But that doesn't matter because what's more important is that we cherish all our memories with our loved ones and forever treasure it.

Last night, March 7,2011, the dormers prepared a mini-farewell party for the graduating fourth year dormers. Many of us were looking forward for this day because of the various things that were going to take place during the party but at the same time, most of us were not exactly that excited since the farewell party would mean lots of 'goodbyes' and tears. Honestly, who would want to leave their friends after spending almost all of their high school dorm life together? Spending time every night, doing crazy stuff and whatsoever are things that will surely be missed. That's why the 3rd year dormers decided to show a presentation featuring pictures of the most memorable times of the fourth year in the dorm. Almost all of the pictures were candid shots so we were very noisy while watching. After that, videos of various learners (not dormers) coming from different year levels and even facilitators who wanted to say their farewells were shown. There were also surprise videos from their former classmates. It was a very emotional night but we all had fun.

We will surely miss our fourth year manangs! :)

LOVE

"There are some things that can't be expressed in words..
That's because love isn't something that needs to be explained..
..It's something that needs to be felt and experienced.. "

Rose...

Treat me like a rose..
Yes,. a thorny rose.
You don't need to hold on to me so tightly
Coz u'll only get hurt in the end...
:3

_^*Fire*^_

A warm fire...a good source of light and life.
Deep within itself, it is driven by an urge:
...to protect what it cherishes the most.
But in order to do so, he has to keep a distance from them...
...in order not to destroy something precious with his own power.
"this deep concern he holds">>>he understands that it can bring him to an excessive selflessness.
So much so that he doesn't realize that he is slowly destroying himself with all that he has done not minding his own needs.
What is a simple fire to do when his only choice is to stay behind,watching from afar so that it wouldn't burn anything that gets close to it?

...T_T...

The day you took my ring off,
is the same day my fear grew.
The fear of that bond that connects us...
to be torn apart piece by piece.
Little by little, I begin to realize...
that what they said was becoming a reality.
The pieces ARE starting to fall.
But I do not want to make the same mistake again.
If last time, I let you take it off...
without me knowing of the consequences,
this time, I will do whatever it takes not to repeat history.
I know I made some mistakes too against you...
and I don't know if you're willing to forgive me if I would say sorry.
But I still hope that you would be understanding enough...
to accept me back as a friend...