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Saturday, October 2, 2010

"I LOVE YOU"


Jeremy from the new Korean drama "He's Beautiful" said:
"These words were so precious to me,
that I held onto it dearly.
But holding onto it too dearly
can mean that it can't be said again"


^_^..awwwww.... *sniff* *sniff*... He said this to Go Mi Nam while they were on the treasure bus after he sang a song for her with tears running... I actually cried in this part... Poor Jeremy.. Too bad Go Mi Nam is already in love with Hwang Tae Kyung.. :(

EMOTE VI...an unrequitted love?


"I've known you since we were just little kids.We treated each other like siblings.And since that time, I was very determined to be someone who will always be there whenever you need me.. I'll be the one who'll support you..

but I wonder... Now that we've grown...

When I see that you're smiling with someone else...Why do I feel hurt even though I once said that your happiness is my joy?

My heart cries when I see you hurt by that someone. It breaks when you're about to give up. It feels painful when you're suffering because of that someone.

And yet, here I am... comforting you... telling you to be strong and not to give up.

Seeing you in pain is the worst.
That's why I'll suppress these feelings and turn it into your own strength.Even though I also want you to look at me only, I continue to encourage you ...just for me to avoid seeing you hurt.."

"When will you realize that I love you this much?"

EMOTE V


"The pain that the world has brought upon me is spreading like a disease.
The sinful person that I am is causing others to feel the pain too.
Seeing them hurt by me adds oil to the fire,
..adds more to the feeling of hatred I feel towards myself.
Isn't there any solution for this mess?
If I distance myself from other people..
Will they not like me anymore?
Will they understand why I'd do such a thing?
They know that I have the capability to hurt them unintentionally.
But seeing them hurt by me makes me feel ten times more the pain.
"

EMOTE IV... Getting Jealous with the openness of other's hearts..


It hurts me to see people who can boldly express
what's been kept inside of them.
When the words enter my ears,
they directly pierce my heart.
Seems like my heart is being squeezed by my own feelings,
restlessly waiting for their time to be let out.
But even so, the darkness that I surround myself with
is just too strong to be overcome by what's inside.

EMOTE III


"The fire of life inside me is dying slowly..so slowly...
The emptiness of my heart is overwhelming me.
Life is not supposed to be about this pain..
...but is it for me?
"

EMOTE II


"I think I'm falling...
not for you
not for someone
not for love
but...
for the PAIN...
that's eating my heart away
" (T^T)

EMOTE!!



Life...
It's as if it's breaking..shattered
Falling into pieces..

Tears have already dried up,
What's left is blood.

Blood that my heart once held,
blood that's starting to pour...


this is an exaggeraion of feelings... It's something I made up when I felt sad and down... there's more XD

"Phew!".. What's with the great relief?..

Yesterday, October 1, I presented my talumpati. And today, I feel so relieved that I could now sleep without worrying so much. Want to know how it went? Well, it went great. I believe that I did my best and that I was able to express myself clearly just enough for my classmates to understand what I was talking about. Although, my hands were shaking a lot before I started. Good thing I drank water to calm me down. Well, I hope that I'll get a good grade.

Anyway, if you're wondering what it was about, then here goes:

Ummm, it's basically about the "pag-asa ng bayan". For so long, we always said that our future lies in the hands of the children. But in my oration, I was like saying, "..but is it really true?..that our future lies in the hands of children?"... Here's a line in my oration giving this thought: "Paano nga ba nating masasabing ang kabataan ang siyang pag-asa ng bayan? Na sa simula't simula pa lang ay nakalimutan na silang imulat at hubugin ng kanilang pamilya sa kabutihang asal." In the later part of my talumpati, I pointed out that it should be the citizens of our country who shall be diligent enough to form children that are loyal, brave, respectful and can be trusted. And of course, I also included God in my talumpati.. that we should have faith in him always. And I ended my speech with this: "Kaya ikaw, bata ka man o matanda, simulan mo na ang pagkikilos para sa ating ikauunlad. Dahil alam ko at alam nating lahat na ang totoong pag-asa ng bayan ay ang bawat isa sa atin. Kaya magkaisa na tayong lahat dahil sa pagkakaisa ay may malaking pag-asa."

So what do you think... Now, I'm waiting for the product of my effort: my grade... Good luck to me and to my classmates..XD